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White men make up approximately 36% of the population, but commit 75% of mass shootings. What would be called terrorism by any other skin tone is suddenly some mysterious unnamed disease. We as a society are perfectly happy to further stigmatize mentally ill people, who are far more likely to be victims of violence than commit violence, in the service of protecting white supremacy and male entitlement.

Oct 20

It was hard to feel the right emotions at the right times. They didn’t come at all when you set a place for them, and they sacked when you weren’t ready, when you were just innocently flossing your teeth, for example, or eating a bowl of cereal.

Oct 19

Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.

Oct 19

Fashion is not about buying a second skin. Fashion is about having a fantasy.

Oct 19

I couldn’t look at you and breathe at the same time.

Oct 19

You’re never finished with anyone while they can still make you angry.

Oct 19

Oct 18

You filled me with a wild desire to know everything about life.

Oct 18

I suspect the truth is that we are waiting, all of us, against insurmountable odds, for something extraordinary to happen to us.

Oct 17

But who can say what’s best? That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.

Oct 17

A woman sitting by herself is not waiting for you.

Oct 17

Each day I wondered what would happen next. What happens when you stop wanting, when you are happy. I supposed I would go on being happy forever. I knew I would not mess things up by growing bored. I had done that once before.

Oct 16

I’ve been prepared for almost anything; except absence, except silence.

Oct 16

I need some peace of mind and I need you to be here. I hate needing anything and yet I do […]

Oct 16

You wanted to write something worthwhile. You wanted to make sense of it all. You wanted to tell the truth. You wanted to understand why you felt like this.

You wanted to know why something in you is not satisfied with dull. Won’t sit still in social settings. Asks the wrong questions. Gets nervous and leaves without explanation. Is always scratching itself and looking away. Takes up too much space. Takes up none. Something in you has feet always half-off the ground. Itching to leave. Planning escape routes. Not fully trusting. Always knowing how much money I have in my account and how far that will get you.

Oct 15

s.t.